back in the bean.
3 months ago i was still living in LA. then i quit my job and had the luxury of visiting 3 amazing countries for 6 weeks. life is crazy and unpredictable. when you don’t know what to do, i’d suggest going with what feels right, not with what’s deemed right. right and wrong is just relative anyways. i’ve always gone with my gut feeling, even when i don’t fully understand them. and it hasn’t failed me yet.
as soon as i got back, i started feeling restless. this is the problem with workaholics, we don’t know how to just chill. then i was reminded of the importance of stillness, to do nothing but be a big noodle head. stillness is needed to balance out and enhance productivity. it is also a huge luxury, so while i can afford some time of stillness, i should take it. besides, what’s the rush?
inside of me i was secretly hoping for a huge revelation on this trip, the “answer” to my big transitional question marks of, what should i do with my life now? and i got no big answer, just many amazing moments that deepened my insights on life. i realized that there are no big answers or big breaks in life, just lots of high and low waves, so you gota keep learning and growing and fucking up and getting up. when i feel like i’m “running out of time”, i just remind myself that jay-z dropped his first album at my age, 26!! so it is never too late.
on my trip, i read outliers by malcolm gladwell. in it, i was reminded that success takes a long time to build. a lot of hard work. and also a lot of fuck ups. when i read about a successful person’s story like steve jobs or kanye west, i always wana know their fuck ups and failures, because it reminds me that no success comes without the shitty chapters. it’s more than just paying dues, it’s about building character, compassion and humility. in the beginning of each new year, i sit down with myself, set some goals and a mission statement. it’s always something like—this year is gona be the fucking bomb, this year i’m gona make it happen, this year is gona be off the wally wall! and i’ll do the same thing this new year, but this time i’ll include—this year i give myself permission to fuck up, to fuck up a lot, because if it’s gona happen eventually i wana get as many of the big ones out as possible. this isn’t meant to set me up for failure, it’s simply allowing me to take more risks, to learn from my mistakes and to be human.
i’ve gotten many messages from people thanking me for my travel blog (which i didn’t expect at all!), and i want to thank you sincerely for taking the time to read. if i could leave you with one thing, it would be—go travel. as much as you can. while you can. the experience will expand your human capacity to see, feel and perceive beyond the limiting perspectives of our everyday social constructions. there will always be excuses—the timing, the money, whatever. but if you want something bad enough, you’ll find a way. if you don’t, you’ll find an excuse. since everything is relative—values, societal ideas, social norms—when you travel you will discover how trapped your life may be, from the things you desire to the way you look at yourself. and when you travel, with an open mind and an open heart, you will discover that freedom is closer than it appears.
P.S. this is my last post for my travel blog. new tumblr coming in 2013.
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